lyrics for the first four are posted now. also: these four finished songs will remain as is, but for those who have pre-ordered, please don’t be alarmed if you happen to notice the song order (or the titles of the other songs) on ‘volume 1’ changing between now and february 9th on the bandcamp page. i’m still making some decisions.

no matter what, volume 1 will continue to contain 11 songs…perhaps even more? but certainly not less.




it’s out now:

only because i need you all to know how much this means to me, how much it feels like i’ve just uploaded not music but blood into this laptop, everything you hear on these songs (and on the future album) is me alone. i even played the drums, which involved me practicing on a “kit” in my tiny apartment made of, among other things, a Le Creuset cooking pot wrapped in a t-shirt.

now i am going for a long walk/run/float/heart attack. enjoy the songs/blood.

much love,


four songs from volume 1 of my fourth album will be released today at 1:01 pm EST, on bandcamp exclusively.

seven related things while my brain is still functioning:

1. the four songs are free, but a digital pre-order will begin at the same time – if you pre-order volume 1, you’ll automatically be sent a link to download it the moment it’s released on february 9th, 2021.  and of course you’ll be able to stream/download the four free songs like everyone else. (note: volume 1 will also be released shortly thereafter on all digital platforms (spotify, google play, apple music, etc.)

2.  there is an option to send a pre-order as a gift if you’d like.

3.  for those who can’t or would rather not pre-order volume 1, the four songs i’ve chosen to share will be free to stream and download and share, as promised.  please help yourself to them.

4. there is always an option through my bandcamp page to ‘pay what you want’ (bandcamp accepts paypal and credit card payments).  the base cost of the pre-order is $11.00, but i still have lots to do in the studio over the coming months, so know that every dollar will go towards studio debt and upcoming expenses for physical copies of the two volumes combined.  any support you can offer is tremendously appreciated. but know that this includes just listening.

5. if any of this “volume 1” and “digital-only” nonsense is confusing to you, please see my earlier post for details.

6. for those of you who use facebook less and less, consider following me on bandcamp.  it’s very low-key, and a nice alternative (or so i’ve been told) to receive updates.

7.  before i kind of fall apart for the day (in a good way), thank you as always to andy magoffin at his house of miracles, who is the only person on this earth i would ever trust to record my music, and who has been so accommodating and supportive throughout this difficult year.  though frankly i could say the same thing about the past 20. 

music soon.



i think my heart might burst. home from a long day of mixing the first four songs – only six days now until they’re released and the pre-sale of part 1 begins.




this would feel surreal enough even if 2020 wasn’t all that it has (and hasn’t) been. hard to know when a good time is for anything anymore.  but maybe this just means that now is more important than ever.

even before everything changed, i’d promised myself to be less closed for album #4’s release than #3’s, which was a man whispering, “it’s out” into an envelope before sealing it and running away to a wild place…with the envelope in his pocket.  so here’s the first installment of keeping that promise:

1. #4 is a double album. 22 songs at this moment, not including the two i put out in 2016

2. making CDs or vinyl right now, especially for an album the size of nine Mongolias, is impossible financially, as i’m in debt from recording (and still not quite finished).  but physical copies are vital to me.  so below is a solution that i hope will solve both problems, and as a bonus, ensure that no one (including me) is crushed under a five-years-in-the-making avalanche of songs.

3. the album will be released initially in two parts, each essentially a full-length album by itself.  

4. four new songs will be released on december 17th, on bandcamp exclusively.  because i need to release something before this year is over – as a gift to all of you, but also to me.  these will be free to listen to and download, but my hope is that they might encourage you to pre-order the album – a pre-sale for part 1 will begin that day too. 

5. part 1 will be released on february 9th, 2021, on bandcamp and all major digital platforms.

6. part 2 will be released once i can afford to make CDs of the full album.  as soon as i’ve raised enough to start the process (whether it’s from selling my music or finding an abandoned warehouse full of saffron), i’ll announce the release date of part 2. 

7. the double CD will reunite part 1 and part 2.

so: december 17th: 4 new songs.  february 9th: the release of part 1.  shortly thereafter (i hope): the release of part 2, with the reunited full/double album on CD.



(p.s. for twitter users, a recently dusted off, six-years-dormant account (@raisedbyswans6) will function solely as a notification source for new updates posted on my main website as well as on facebook, going forward.)

coming next week: an announcement regarding the release of a certain album a certain someone’s been working on for the past six years.

not trying to be coy. just wanted to promise this while i’m feeling charged up, in case the roller coaster comes off the rails again.  not quite ready with all the details right now anyway.

i guess i also want to savour the fact that i have a proper announcement to make after all this time.



© eric howden, 2019

i’ve not known what to say here for a while now. i still don’t. but i’m sending love through my songs always. i hope you can feel this.

i know some are wondering about album #4.  i have only the vaguest update about this for now, which is that if the situation continues to improve, it will still be released this year. i was very close to finishing it when the world closed down.

thank you for your messages and emails over the past months, they’ve meant so much to me. if i’ve not replied to you yet, i’m sorry. even pulling this sad little pile of crumbs together has taken an embarrassing amount of time and energy. for now, know that i love and appreciate all of you, and that i hope you’re okay.


10 years ago today, i released my second album, ‘no ghostless place’. i wrote its 13 songs over four years in the same little room i’m sitting in now, using a borrowed ADAT machine to layer parts, and with number six often curled in my lap as i worked.  

on my first day of recording ‘no ghostless place’ at the house of miracles, i received a rejection letter from a government agency i’d applied to months before for help with recording costs. the application process had required horrible mountains of paperwork, but also the submission of two demo versions of songs meant to be on the new album (i sent “hail of arrows” and “we were never young”).  although i’d initially intended to re-record both songs, this raw demo of “we were never young” is the one that ended up on the album, and that a little while later, appeared in a movie called ‘Chloe’, which is where some of you may have first heard my music.

not sure why i’m sharing this really. i guess i’m fond of the idea that the recording of this album began with a rejection. that the album itself opens with a rejected song. and i hope that anyone reading this who’s in the same boat doesn’t pay any attention to what others think about what they’re creating.

i’d promised more of an update about the planned vinyl editions of ‘no ghostless place’, but always underestimate how posting things online makes me feel.  i feel like a turtle without its shell today. without its skin, too, now that i think about it.

so for now, happy 10th birthday to this album, which is impossibly dear to me (though no dearer than the others), and which has brought me close to so many of you, even if most of us have never met.  more information on the vinyl editions soon – lots of work still to do, but progress is being made.

thank you for your messages of support.



all i’ve been doing since my last update is pouring myself into album #4. i’ve now recorded approximately 91% of its instrumentation and sung precisely 72.22% of its songs in the studio.

unfortunately i’m also 100% out of money. this is inevitable when one prioritizes recording costs over far less exciting expenses like rent/heat/clothing.  who needs clothes without holes anyway, besides maybe scuba divers. but probably best not to get evicted in the middle of winter, as much as it might be worth it in exchange for two or three more sessions. 

everything will work out, as it always has. just wanted to let everyone know that (a) i’m in the midst of sorting out a solution, and continue always to work and prepare at home, and (b) there’s no doubt that the album will still be out this year. i’ve just had to delay my next session in the studio, and therefore the release date – though hopefully not for long.

sending love and hope to all of you for 2020,


p.s. a small update on the ongoing saga of possibly creating vinyl editions of “no ghostless place’ tomorrow, which happens to be the 10 year anniversary of its release.